Have you ever made your new year’s resolutions? I intendedly avoid making them, because I know..I will miss to fulfill them anyway at the end of the year..and it’ll make me feel bad and embarrassed, so why should I torture myself?

But as new year is approaching, I read anywhere on the Net, people are listing what they want to do to themselves on the upcoming year..so I am intrigued to make mine…( but keep in mind that these are NOT any sort of resolutions..I just hope I can do these next year, so I CAN be a BETTER person.. )

Here we go :

1. I want to  concentrate more on my work. Many working hours didn’t reflect the quality of the outcomes. I felt that on the last quarter of 2007 I was losing my interest and dedication towards my job, I made several minor mistakes..nothing fatal had happened but my perfectionist side haunted me all these days, I regretted them so bad because it was entirely because of my ignorance. My boss is always nice, and he never mentioned about it, but he told me before my holidays, that he hopes that next year I will apply all my mind to the work. ( It doesn’t mean that I should spend more hours at the office, right Sir? )
2. I want to spend more time with family. I have many extended families living on Jakarta too, but I spent so little time ( if not to say almost never ) with them. My father’s cousins came to my hometown couple days ago, and I met their children which I never met before..and one of them is already 22 years old! They said I care less to the family..which is somehow true, and I’m not proud of myself being the careless person..( It was in my blood, being careless..but I wish I can know my other families better..it said that “blood is thicker than water”, right? Knowing families better won’t give you any loses huh? )
3. Live a healthier life. I lived day by day without thinking what I do now will effect later on..Busy almost everyday, and careless on less busy days, I know that I always think that I’m still young and healthy.. But deep down inside my heart ( do you have one? my friend once said ), I know I should pay some attention to my way of life. I eat almost anything, didn’t take rest as much as I need it ( spent too much time watching dramas and went online rather than get some sleep whenever I’ve already come back late from work ), and did less exercises from what I planned at the beginning of the year. I gave up my membership of a fitness center because I couldn’t spare enough time to visit it, and it was obviously just wasting my money, but I didn’t replace the exercises time at home or at the apartment’s fitness area like I always said to others when they asked what the reason I quited the membership.
4. Pay more attention to my social life. Same with what I did on family relationship, this is because I am a CARELESS person. I am not proud to be one, but what can I do? But I will try the hardest to be the opposite next year. I PROMISED. I’ll be a nicer, less sarcastic, less cynical, less tempered, more kind hearted person. ( If my mom could read this, she will cry on happiness.. )
5. Do serious research on my higher education. I was planning to continue my study, but I haven’t really searched where I want to enroll to get a Master degree and in which major I want to join.
6. Fix my relation with God. God, You sure know that I’m moving too far from You lately, I feel shame of that, I know it’s just the matter of faith and willingness, which lacked from me these days. I want to devote my life to You, I want to live a life as You always want, please help me, take my hands, and never let me go..( I know You never gonna leave me, no matter what. )
7. Become a more organized person. No more messy working desk. No more messy room. No more missed appointment. Be punctual. ( Hey..I am punctual. But people usually come late when they have a scheduled meeting with me..so I take them for granted. Excuses. I should never have drawn to others’ bad habit, I know..)
8. Spend wisely and save some of my money. I love to shop..Haven’t failed to the ’shopaholic’ category yet, but I often didn’t have a clue where my salary had gone to! I bought too many unnecessary things, too often just followed my heart and without proper thinking, bought something that I’d regret it later. I am not getting younger, I realize, and it’s the time to plan my financial position to prepare a better future..( wow, my sentence heard like it was taken from a life insurance’s brochure.. )

Hmm, that’s all I could think right now..

What are your hopes of yourself for the next year?

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I watched MKMF 2007 this morning on Arirang, and I saw Big Bang performed this song “Lie” ( 거짓말 ). It’s a catchy song, and the MV is interesting..so I was looking for it on You Tube, and found one with English subbed. I don’t know Korean, I don’t know whether the translation is correct or not, anyway, just listen to the song!

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